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Why would I cry leaving a job I hated?

Asked by chelle21689 (7272points) 1 month ago from iPhone

I’ve mentioned previously on here how I’ve been looking for a new job since it was a dead end job.

Thursday, my boss and his boss met with me on Zoom… I knew why instantly. I was fine but as I heard the words they had to eliminate my position, I started bawling! I knew it was nothing personal, they even started to cry a little! I took myself off video and muted myself because I started hyperventilating a little. I was so surprised by my reaction, I never thought I would react this way!! I have several months of savings and I have a side business, I’m marketable…so I don’t know why I took it so hard at that moment!

I knew lay offs were possible but I thought it was highly unlikely since we were already so short staffed! I told my coworkers and they were sad. I ran into my
co-worker who mentored me for all these years and she actually wanted to hug me and teared up. She said things are going downhill, she doesn’t know how they’re going to get through the heavy workload, so many people were let go that were shocking.

I am a little mad I didn’t take the voluntary leave that would give pay and benefits for an extra four months…but I had to be stupid because I feared the job market. Now it’s all ending this month.

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cookieman's avatar

Regardless of the circumstances, rejection is painful. Even if you disliked a job, nobody wants to hear, ‘we don’t need you’. It hurts. Plus, I think we often are sad more about what could have or should have been as opposed to the actual separation.

Either way, it’s all a type of mourning and that comes in a variety of forms — even crying on Zoom.

LadyMarissa's avatar

In this case, they let you go which took away your opportunity to choose to leave. In & of itself, the rejection was NOT pleasant!!!

I had one job years ago that I despised with ALL my heart…almost as much as you said you hated this job. I chose to quit & was thrilled on my last day that it would really be my LAST day of putting up with the crap. Yet, as I walked out the door & headed for my car, the tears began to flow & I sobbed all the way home. To this day, I do NOT understand WHY I cried because I knew that I had made the right decision!!!

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Jeruba's avatar

You didn’t cry for leaving the job. You cried for the shock and humiliation of being let go. The message was: we’re better off without you than with you. That’s tough to swallow.

The initiative was taken away from you. Your options were taken away from you. You couldn’t leave proudly, as you wanted to. Of course you were indignant.

But never mind. These days, it’s happened to a lot of people who’ve never had to face it before. You’ve got plenty going for you, and you’ll land in a better place.

si3tech's avatar

Had you quit without having secured another job you might cry.

janbb's avatar

Being laid off is always a shock to the ego whether you liked the job or not. Just realize these are the times we’re leaving in.

chelle21689's avatar

@Jeruba great way to think of that way

Jeruba's avatar

@LadyMarissa, did you ever find yourself in tears when you broke up with someone?—when it was you who did the breaking up, and you really wanted it to be over, but you cried anyway? I think it’s a lot like that.

Seems to me that one big explanation is sheer disappointment: I had such high hopes for this, and now look how it’s turned out. A job could feel like that just as much as a romance or any other thing that you’ve invested yourself in. In the gap between the ideal and the real, there’s room for a lot of pain.

We pick ourselves up and we go on, or we don’t. Mostly we do.

chelle21689's avatar

So odd how it is almost comparable to a relationship and break up. On the plus side, in the mail today I received my details outlining my severance package. I’m okay for 5 months of salary, so I see it as getting paid to find a new job lol.

jca2's avatar

Did they know you were unhappy and looking for a new job? That may have made it easier for them to choose you when they need to cut heads.

chelle21689's avatar

@jca2 No, they had major lay offs. A lot of key people and people there for several years had been let go. It’s at a private non profit university so we were already in bad shape to begin with and then the pandemic came along. Students wanted refunds, people aren’t attending, classes going remote, less faculty, hiring freezes, etc.

jca2's avatar

I understand that, @chelle21689. I’m asking that in addition to that, did they know you were unhappy and looking for a new job?

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