I have disdain for my predicament. Any advice?
I’m a college freshman and this is my first semester.
People in college always say “you shouldn’t talk about high school”, but I’m going to in a way of background info.
I was the well rounded student in high school. Class historian and knew mostly everyone in my class. I strayed from cliques, but kept a circle of close friends. I was involved in a lot and worked hard.
Now I’m in college. My freshman class just seems like partying superficial nitwits. I’m not anti-social, but since the beginning of the semester, I’ve become anti-social. It’s hard to establish friends with so many people here. Nothing interests me as much as it used to. I’m a pretty down to earth and friendly, I just don’t want to put myself out there in this unfamiliar environment. I don’t have time to really join any clubs this semester. This is more of a commuter university so everyone is mostly on their own agendas. I’m an hour away from home & I truly feel a difference when I do go home. I’m not homesick, or at least I don’t think I am because I’ve adapted to my everyday routine of school and work.
When I do go home, I come back to my school feeling refreshed and balanced, but as time passes my depressive state dawns back on me. I have nothing to look forward to, nothing to do that I’m passionate about. School, work, school, work.