Yes, but I think it’s because I’m so far away from everyone in my life (except my son). I miss having dinners with family and my friends from back east all the time. I can pick up the phone and call them at any time, but it’s not the same. I have made friends where we are at now, but it’s different from the friendships I had before.
Yup, I feel lonely at times. While I have people in my life who care deeply about me & who I care deeply for, (friends and family) I still have to fight that demon of loneliness every now and then. I do connect closely with a small number of friends, I do have friends and family that I can bare my soul with, plus a closeness beyond description to who I know to be my God, but I still need to walk through the feelings of loneliness at times. -Its always good when I come out the other side & realize the truth again, that I’m not actually walking this thing called ‘life’ quite ‘solo’ after all…
I love to have some personal space to reflect and think, some peace and quiet is quite enjoyable, however, I also love to socialize and friends are very important to me. I have very few true friends though and make it a point to hang on to the good ones.. as well as make new ones…even with all these people in my life there are times when I do feel alone or lonely. These are times when I just cant help but feel like nobody can or would even want to understand how i feel.
I have always felt far more comfortable in small groups or with only a few people. I don’t like a lot of people around me and I really don’t have the patience for most for very long so why take that out on them? I learned a long time ago when you’re misunderstood, you can’t teach yourself what is in anyone else’s head, and you can’t teach anyone else to understand what is inside your head. It just doesn’t work. So, alone for me has never been a bad thing. But I have always felt that way because of being the way I am, and always having been misunderstood.