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I lost all my friends and don’t know how to fix it?

Asked by Penguin (20points) July 15th, 2021 from iPhone

Hey, I have no idea how this works or where I was supposed to go to ask for advice but I’m gonna try this. Just incase it’s a sensitive topic for anyone, this post mentions suicide. So a few months ago I attempted after a really complicated situation with sexual harassment and such (not really relevant here), but after I attempted and failed word spread around really fast. All the teachers and staff at my school and most parents in town know what I did. My family has been very understanding and I have gotten the help I need. Now that I’m stable mentally and physically I’ve been trying to take better care of myself which includes socializing the amount I need to be happy. I’d been trying to hang out with my friends that I’d seen weekly before my attempt and have known for years, but every time I’d ask to hang out they’d be “busy” which wasn’t surprising considering summer had just started. It wasn’t until a few weeks ago that my friends had come to me and explained that their parents didn’t want me around them because I attempted. They told me that they didn’t want to make me feel worse than I already had which is why they waited. They’d showed me screenshots of their parents telling them they couldn’t be around me. The worst of it was a screenshot of my best friends mom asking if my bsf had been cutting herself because of me and blaming me for my friends depression. I understand why their parents don’t want me around, but it kinda breaks me knowing that people think so badly of me. I try my best to not let any of my emotions affect other people and I’d die for a strangers happiness. In fact, I hadn’t told anyone about the persistent sexual harassment id dealt with for almost a year because I didn’t wanna ruin anyone’s mood. The last thing I’d wanna do is hurt anyone by being around them, but I have no friends now and it wouldn’t be easy to make new ones considering everyone knows I attempted and I’ve been known as “barbie” and “slut” since the beginning of high school. I’m so sorry if this is an inconvenience to you, but any help would be appreciated. I love you <33

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RedDeerGuy1's avatar

I was snuffed out in university, because I admited to have a mental illness. My only advice is to focus on your studies. Adults usually stop bullying eventually. The rest end up on the street or in jail.

Sorry for the situation that you are in. Your experiences will help others and you should end up better for them.

Being a human is a fatal and chronic condition. Life happens to everyone eventually.

I heard a saying. One cannot lose a true friend by being yourself, and every one else doesn’t matter.

Hawaii_Jake's avatar

Thank you so much for sharing your story with. It was very brave for you to write all this for us to read. Kudos to you.

I am so sorry you had to experience the sexual harassment that led to a suicide attempt. That must have been very hard. I know it hurt a lot. I understand the desire to end one’s life. I’ve been there. It’s a black pit where no light shines, and there’s no hope. I am so glad your attempt was unsuccessful.

It’s really sad that your friends’ parents don’t want them to spend time with you. I hear you, and it seems you feel isolated. It must make you sad. It’s completely natural to feel sad.

I have an idea. Have you ever thought of volunteering? Is there something that you feel passionate about or love? Many organizations welcome volunteers. An animal shelter needs help with walking dogs. Your local library needs help with many things. Volunteering is a great way to meet people and make friends. It also looks impressive on your resume when you apply to college and are searching for scholarships. I used to volunteer at a community theatre organization. It was loads of fun, and I made many friends who are still my friends today. Think about volunteering.

I also suggest you look into meditation. It’s not as hard as it seems. There are thousands of YouTube videos with guided meditations that are excellent. There are even apps for it.

I’m really glad your parents support you. They must love you a lot, and your suicide attempt probably scared them a great deal. I’m glad to hear you got help and feel stable. I’m stable too and live a very happy life.

I wish you all the best.

kritiper's avatar

First of all, follow the “Golden Rule.” Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.

JLoon's avatar

It’s a hard situation for sure. But as others responding here have already said – You’ve been open and brave about sharing your problem. And courage is the most important part of living your life.

I agree volunteering can help get you re-connected with your community, and with new people. Also consider something like this when you feel ready :
https://www.meetup.com/topics/weekend-adventures/

Finally, you can always experiment with virtual friendships online. Just realize you can probably do better than Fluther – But you can do worse too.

Good luck!

KRD's avatar

Try online friend groups on social media.

snowberry's avatar

I’m sorry this happened to you. I think you need new friends. Your friends’ parents went overboard IMO. Can you change schools? If you can, do that.

My granddaughter had a similar thing happen to her when she had brain surgery. Her boyfriend’s parents made him break up wiht her. At least she had other friends, so it wasn’t as challenging as your situation.

cheebdragon's avatar

This might seem ridiculous but I think you should just talk to their parents and tell them about your mindset at the time of the attempt and explain to them the progress you have made since then. If it’s not possible for you to change schools, the next school year is going to be incredibly difficult without any friends and it could very easily lead to you falling back into severe depression. If you don’t feel comfortable speaking to them yourself, you could ask your parents to talk to them or you could even just write them a letter. As a parent of a teenager and someone who’s been through a similar situation when I was a teenager, I truly think this might be your best option.

flutherother's avatar

Even at this distance from the situation I feel angry with your friends’ parents. They sound very cold hearted and controlling and they use social media to avoid discussing things face to face with their own children. Nice.

All I can tell you is to be proud of who you are and of what you have survived. Hold your head high and look people in the eye. In time they will come round, and if they don’t, well it is their loss.

janbb's avatar

Here’s a thought; I don’t know if it’s any good. If your parents are friends with some of the other parents, maybe they could talk to them privately and address some of their fears? It would be great if you could get back together with at least one of your friends. Since your parents are supportive of you, maybe they could help solve this.

I really feel for you!

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